Mazen+Alshubbar

I miss my mom Mazen Alshubbar The most one I have missed since I came to USA is my mom. I could not believe that it is going to be like this. I mean to live far away from my family. Now, I know why I cried so much when I kissed her head before I left my home. When I was in my home, my mom does everything and when I say everything I mean everything. She does the cleaning, cooking, and every simple action in home. Whatever I say about my mom, I am guarantee that I will miss something about her. I love my mom more than anything in my life; actually, she is my life. When she got sick with Cancer, my life was destroyed. I cannot imagine for one second that I can live without her. We went to the best hospitals to find the cure for my mom. I lived two years and seven months in my life under a black cloud. Now, I am in USA; I clean my clothes by myself. I try to cook with my friends and sometimes we burn the food. I do everything by myself now. There is no mama here. I remember when I was in high school; my mom comes to me every morning to wake me up. I hated these moments when she wants to wake me up because I know I have to go to school. Now, I wish that she wake me up every morning. She was fighting with me every morning to wake me up. Now, I hate every single second that I have been sleeping and not to look at her face every morning and now I have to listen to alarm to wake up! There is no fun in this at all. Believe me when I say this. When something bad happened to me, I don’t tell my mom about it. I don’t want her to be worried about me anymore. When I was in my country, she told me before I left the house and come here to study that there is an application they call it skype, you can see me every time I want to. She said this will help us to communicate like we are together. In fact, Skype made me miss my mom more and more. I wish I just can kiss her head and let her be last person that I see before I go to sleep in my room. I wish now that I wake up every day and listing to her voice shouting at my youngest sister or shouting at me because I over slept, I accept that. Mom, I really miss you and I need you to be with me.